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Wednesday, March 28, 2007

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Boring! Scions of Fate is down at the moment and i cant train at all.

Well, im so angry with him! He's such a big bad bastard! For almost every week lasting for one whole month, he always misunderstood what i've said and we always end up quarrelling big time.

Its true that last week i always asked him to play mahjong when he's tired. But working so many OTs in consecutive days made me waited for him for so long hours and which eventually i grows so sick and tired staying at home facing the com for so long. Of course i will ask to go out! But he doesnt allow me to go alone neither does he want to accompany me over! Maybe i should say he allow me to go but he say it in a very unwilling way. Who will be so stupid to really go out when he actually said ok in such a way?! And so, for those few days we quarrel everyday just on a going out issue! Damn! Big time coversation breakdown k? Whatever i think this way, he doesnt agree with it and said that way, then i dont agree with him and insist on this way. What the hell? So sick and tired..

Finally the day before, i used a 'returning of vcd' excuse to make my way to my friend's house and play mahjong for just a teeny while. But in the end he misunderstood what i've said again today. Things doesnt go for a better way instead huh..

Just because out of kindness, i went to malaysia and bought some treats for my friend's dog cos she like it and he assumed that im using the same old method to go to my friend's house. But NO!! Why does he have to think it this way? Its so absurd. Sometimes it doesnt pay to be kind? Haha.. Hmmm..

Since he always complained that he's tired, then y can he play Scions of Fate till 3am yesterday? Knowing that he have to work in the morning.. Just as i used this issue to tease him, he thought im kind of blaming him. See! Misunderstanding again. Communication breakdown, communication crash, whatever it can be.

Im really damn tired. Sometimes when i thought of his sweet times, i smiled but when i think of all these bad stuffs, i get so 'f up'. Sometimes i really wonder if he's really the guy for me. Somehow, i wanted to let go but somehow i know i will miss him. Or maybe im just scared if one day i live to regret it.

If things really turn out well for us, of course its good but if we realized we're not for each other after dragging for so long, i really think if im going to waste my youth like this.. Who should tell me what to do anyway?

[[ cheers ]] |4:11 AM|